Whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is gracious, if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.(Philippians 4:8)

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Why Knot ... ??

Bless you, Carin for asking because I will answer with the truth in how I feel about my Why-Knot-Kwilt blog ...

I actually deleted my blog yesterday afternoon and then thought twice about it last night and "un-deleted" it.  

Honestly, I don't know if I have anything of interest to say any more... my heart broke when leaving Montana and having to leave my daughters behind due to legal matters which continue to this day ... two years later.

I'm not the same person I was and I do miss my blogging community ... but I know that most of my community of online friends have moved on without me and again ... what do I have to share?  I try to be positive ... I do ... but to date ... two years into this new life, I feel I'm still trying to find a life and yet the battle for my reason for living sans my daughters continues.  Foolish and dramatic sounding I am sure ... and I apologize for that. ... but it is my daily reality ... no one else's.  I know for a certainty that we each carry our own burdens.  I also know for a certainty that I am blessed in so many fortunate ways as so many others are not.  However, my burdens are mine, just as each of you own yours. I put a smile on my face and deal each day, just as most of you do. I stay positive the best I can. I thank God each day I wake up and face a new day. But ... I am a different person... a different person with a different outlook on what is and is not a priority.

Every time I go to write on the blog ... well I either wish for what was, or what isn't any more. This blog for me was a creative, sharing, and comforting outlet.  Many of you fed my creative soul with your kindnesses and your encouragement.  I don't wish to dampen or disappoint.  I don't wish to discourage or bring any one down. 

I want to encourage, be kind, uplift and inspire ... I feel I'm getting closer to wanting this creative writing outlet, but wonder if it needs to be a different direction because I'm a different person now.

I know how my mother feels how about the blogging community .... Any advice? 

My love to each of you and my sincere appreciation for the ask, Carin ... may God Bless you!

~ Wendy